The 2010 Standoff~

The dust has not even settled yet

On what I would call a year of tremendous change

Soo little that I can’t even completely reflect clearly yet

With one more event on the horizon, my best friends departure,

I am left with silence.

And wonder

Where is my life headed..

I typically do not care about these thoughts

I understand that it doesn’t matter..

That I am simply here for the ride.

But as waves of focus begin to hypnotize me

I become paralyzed pondering my so called future

Glittered with movements of hope and love in my new engagement

I am satisfied in a different manner, I am happy with her.

My big dreams of sorts (always too big for me most would say)

Left unbeaten

And in comes another beat…another rhythm..

My enemy staring at me from across the room

Wondering when I will begin..

This old western standoff all a little too familiar

Which holster will I take from

My spirit or my earthly soil

Or may I finally draw them both together?



BAM!!! BAM!!!!! BAM!!!!!!!!



My integration is not finished.



So bring on 2011..I cannot wait…



because when I bring substance to my spirit…



then the lights will turn on.